As usual, while I waited 7 hours to have dinner together as a family, my sister acted as a messenger by telling me that “there’s no food for you today, you’ve to go out and eat on your own.”

Oh well. There’s a disgusting thought that I’ve been staying in a hostel all the while, eat my own food, handle my own problems, lock myself up in my own room (there’s a unspoken rule here that we’re “not supposed” to go into other people’s room), do my own housework, buy my own grocery, etc etc.

How many people would not be amazed by that? And how many people can understand that? Sigh.

On my way to the foodcourt, I called Adam to see if he needs help with accounting. Nice buddy, nice conversation, as usual. But I almost cried when he casually asked,
“why do you need to eat outside? Your mom doesn’t cook? My mom cooked bak kut teh for me! Damn nice! And I’m feeling damn powered up now, ready to study hard!”

I’m lost for words now. Hmm.

Maybe that’s the reason I’m always drawn to people who have a tougher background. Cos those are the ones who can truly share some in-depth exchange of thoughts and share a bit of emotional burden together. Maybe that’s the reason why I hate mommy’s boy. Haha.


Okay 2nd topic.

Something Adam told me ytd shook a bell. Something about the difference between looking for a girlfriend and a wife. I think generally sensible and mature guys would share the same school of thoughts. And I think back then I was only a “girlfriend material” for Mr D.

“If you can’t even proof yourself to be serious about your life, how can you expect anyone to be serious with you?”

I love this line. Haha.

But I realised also, it only applies to ourselves, and not something that we can force upon others. After all, how one wishes to lead his/her life is not something that others’ have a say, unless he/she wants to change.

If I have a friend who says that the fashion industry is her dream, I would encourage her to find as quickly as possible to gain experience in working in the various aspects of the fashion industry during holidays, or even take up internships in firms/ factories/ design institutes/ etc.

But if instead she chose to slack at home and always looking for excuses like busy/lazy/not enough time, I only have to learn how to suppress my anger.

If I have a friend who says being a lawyer is his dream, I would encourage him to try out as many exposures as possible. Since there are as many aspects in this industry as the fashion industry, then how would a 2-week internship be sufficient? Other than private law firms, how about the MNCs and government agencies? Law has such a broad coverage that even my graduating law friends find it hard to narrow themselves into a niche aspect that they eventually fall in love with. It takes time. And while time is all this friend of mine has, why not seize the opportunity and take a leap forward to be ahead of others?

If I have a friend who says journalism is her passion, I would encourage her to venture into the radio and TV stations out there since she has already had a taste of the print media. But if instead, she chose to waste time by saying yes to all the endless outings and wasted away almost every holiday doing nothing constructive other than overspending parents’ money, I will just learn to keep my mouth shut.

What’s the attraction of being a Maybank admin clerk, a Paintball instructor or a Bodyshop sales assistant? The ease of getting the job, the fun of it, and the employee discount on the products? Seriously, I couldn’t help but to feel disdainful at the myopic views of many youngsters nowadays as well as their so-call “passion”, that’s how cheapskate their passion is? That makes me sound like a really old and arrogant bastard, but it’s only because these are the people I truly concern about.

But then again, those concerns were never raised. Cos it’s really hard to get people to share the same views as you, especially when you realised they are simply the immature type. Not meant to be blatant and harsh, but it’s an unfortunate truth.

Argh. I feel like an evil person now.

But at least after all these ranting, I’m able to get back to my Accounting.