Been feeling invincible for the past 2 weeks. And I wanna ride on this momentum.

Been thinking a lot on my way to the Embassy this morning. During the long walk from Orchard MRT, I passed a few 5-star and 6-star hotels which I’ve visited, and I recalled the numerous meetings with interesting persons like Jerry Tan, Frank Cintamani and those rich sort.

I thought about the realities in life, both socially and financially. I’ve always thought that money is not important at all and it’s the root of all evil. But I’ve to admit that many a times, people need money before achieving their goals and dreams.

I thought of David too. Suddenly realised that it’s been a year (plus a few days) since we bid adieu. Haha but that’s not the point. What matters the most was the change in me since last year. From the nua and aimless and immature Year 1 girl to who I am today. I will never ever forget how it felt to be looked down upon by your own boyfriend. As I say this, I put myself in a humble and grateful shoe. If not for this not-very-successful relationship and if not for this ultra-capable and god-liked boyfriend, I might still be the nua and aimless and immature girl.

When you look at someone who comes from an impressive upbringing and family, who has a sheer determination to outshine others, who has a no-joke attitude towards time-management and goals in life, and an impeccable list of achievements ranging from academic record to Commando days to musical talent to sporting talent to well…the eye-catching good looks (haha! not really an achievement though), you simply wonder if god is unfair. Until you reach a point when you feel you could surpass him and do even better, you feel nothing’s unachievable. And you feel invincible.

He’s less of a boyfriend whom I wanna talk about, but more of an inspirational figure (and to a certain extent, I may be just creating an illusionary figure. But it doesn’t matter does it?) whom I kept comparing myself with.

I need to move faster, much faster. I’ve been crawling in year 1, now that I’ve stood up and running, next thing to do is to JUMP! Weeeee~! Haha. ;)

“Ready or not, tell yourself to jump,” -Chris Gardner

On my way back, I’ve received the acceptance call from Shell. To think that Shell only hires 3 interns this year from the hundreds of applicants across Singapore, I felt rather surreal and nonetheless proud of myself.

I discussed the matter with some seniors and NTU Career Office, they all told me that this is a good chance. Alwin even told me I’d be STUPID not to take it, so many ppl would fight hard for a role in Shell. “SHELL LEH! SHELLLLL LEH~!!!!” he kept saying. LOLS.

School also revealed that Hasbro only shortlisted 4 students from NBS and they’ll be choosing 1 of them. Being among those 4 students also gave me another jab of confidence in myself.

Had a nice chat with Yiwei over MSN today as well, about commitment and group work. Kinda reinforced what I’ve learnt from L’Oreal and all the other projects that I’ve been doing this Sem.

Some people make things happen, some wait for things to happen, and others don’t know what had happened.

As I’m typing this, my FYP team has gotten a reply from Prof Lewis who has accepted our proposal and chosen us as one of his 3 teams from a list of 8 proposals. Everyone wanted to fight for this patient and A-record supervisor and ta-duh~ we got it! ;)

Things may be happening in a way that they’re too good to be true, but that’s precisely why we need to ride on the momentum before everything crippled apart!