Today is really really weird.
It feels as if I’m in a trance all day long. Indescribable.
Woke up at 450am to send my little boy to camp, reached home at 8am to wake my little girl up for school. Fell dead on the bed and woke up at 1 pm with a shock. Shock at the fact that I slept so much and confused for a moment cos it felt as if I’ve been sleeping just for 5 mins and 5 days, both made sense to me at that instant. Weird.
Pulled myself out of bed and tried reading my BM212 text. Jerked at the realization that I’ve not completed the presentation slide for evening’s presentation at Youth Council! $3k leh, no play play. SSA needs the cash!
Felt as if I’m the chairperson cum secretary cum treasurer while doing the event summary, CIP element and budget breakdown including market research. Weird enough, I enjoyed being the bao ka liao man today. Hahaha.
Met my secretary Taige at 8pm at AMK, went ahead with the 15min seed fund pitch at Singapore Youth Council. In the conference room facing a panel of 20 panelists, I felt more at ease than my school presentations. Weird.
The presentation went well except for one Q&A question on the sustainability of the project. We realised a better answer could be given to secure the fund only after we left HDB Hub! Shucks. =(
Looking at the many smses that Taige sent me after the presentation, a wave of guilt washed over me and I’m scared of the possible negative outcome that we may receive. The responsibility as a Chairperson is indeed heavy. I do not wish to ruin the potential funding because of an inadequately answer I’ve made. But at least, I think I’ve given a truthful enough answer. Albeit not the best.
While waiting for 157, I suddenly realised it’s Toa Payoh! Haha. Where the KOI bubble tea is! =)
But, I literally felt engulfed by a sudden surge of nostalgia. As I drew nearer to KOI, images of my roadshow days at TPY flashed back..…
I came to realised it has been almost 5 months since the Great Eastern roadshow at Toa Payoh. Time really flies huh. And how weirdly it flies.
I was so overly tight down by school that I seem to have lost count of time and sensations. But at the same time, a part of me wish to be less aware and more numb. Ignorance is bliss and unawareness is happiness?
I just want to quickly end my last paper and take a really really long break. No more internship in December, no more SSA (though I know it’s impossible), no more academic commitment, no more tears.
I wanna travel. Out of Singapore, out of the sight of anything and everything that distract me.
I’m really really tired. Really.
As I listen to Sweet Disposition while typing this on the bus 157 (from one terminal to another terminal), it gives another mesmerizing feeling of being in a trance and surrealism. Weird, isn’t it. I dare not blink, for the moment I close my eyes, the droplets welled up will fall and your face will appear amongst the echo of the song and the watery world filled with unrealness.
Weird.