Resuragam
(Latin: "I will rise again")
Since the starting of the new semester, I embarked on an eager mission to search for my inner potential, interest and drive.
After bidding adieu to Communication Studies, i charged into a totally unfamiliar field of Business. And nearly got myself killed after one semester.
There were periods of severe dejection and self-doubt, and eventually led to a questioning of my choice of studies.
But I'm not a person who does things with an allowance for regret because I believe one should be held responsible for the choices he or she makes. Stubbornness is a double-edged sword you see, depending on where and when you wanna use it. Haha.
Even if I were given a second chance, I would still head for Business and leave myself no path for turning back.
But the big question mark here is, now that i'm in Business, so what's next?
With only a B minus in FM (my heart piang-ed at this hard fact), I would probably aim for a specialisation in Marketing, something that is able to entice me more than the rest of the modules. =) And with a team of pretty strong teammates each with distinctive personalities and capabilities, i'm looking forward to this sem's Marketing projects. Woot~
I sought for the tranquillity of mind from books, great books.
Books that soothed my anxiety and books that disentangled my thoughts.
I sought for the encouragement of spirit from friends, great friends.
Friends who helped to analyse my weakness and strengths, friends who saw the greatness in me which are often overlooked by myself.
I've been reading much lately, from Classics to Politics to Biography to Business to Self-improvement. It seems that the thirst for greater and broader knowledge could never be quenched.
I'm a very goal-driven person, I could never work without a purpose and without something to achieve in my mind, and this is also part of the reason why I felt so lost in the previous sem. Not because that I have no dream, I have dreams, long-term and definite dreams. But i couldn't find my purpose in NBS.
Now, however, I began to feel something stirring within me, as if an enclosed heart is about to wake up. I could sense its coming.
When I was young, I priced competition and all chances of displaying my talents, ever confident about my abilities, I hardly feared anything and anyone. I was used to topping the class and the level, used to be the leader of the class and the school. But somehow, the momentum just stopped, rather abruptly, during my upper secondary days, when I got sick of the politics in the Student Council and all.
I thought, back then, that I'm not suited for a competitive environment and I'll enjoy being a big fish in a small pond. And that was one of the reasons I went to SAJC.
And now, I'm thrown into a competitive environment again, and my current soft and weak exterior is stuck in an awkward position.
Time for some changes yea?
I am very thankful to David. From some of his actions and ways of thinking, I've indirectly been influenced to better myself.
David is a simple and serious guy, but yet mesmerising enough to make me feel happy, calm and peachful with his presence. Wonderful, isn't it? The power of love.
A line made by him has become one of my current mottos: "It's not about whether I can do it or not, it's about whether I want to do it or not."
It calls a great deal of confidence to actually convince oneself to the statement. But THAT, is the right attitude. I read an inspirational book yesterday, called The Winner's Attitude, which emphasises the importance of self-esteem and self-confidence in all our doings.
Few weeks ago, I did a thorough reflection on 2008 and was done with my planning for the fresh new year (not the original new-year-resolution kind of stuff). Be it achievable or not, it makes me feel good to be in control of my life. Yes, control, and the ability to choose, keeps a person on the right track.
My view of excellence is not merely in terms of GPA, for it would be too shallow and superficial. There are a lot of other things on my to-be-achieved list, awaiting to be accomplished.
There're 2 more persons that I'm feeling grateful towards, peiwen and yisheng. The former has taught me many useful skills in socialising and working with people, as well as finding my weaknesses and strengths to prepare myself in the Biz world.
And the latter, through years of strong bonding and friendship, never failed to be a great listener as well as a motivator. We share many similarities in traits, thinking and behaviours, the understanding just flows in naturally and mutually.
Resuragam. 2009.
Let's hope it'll be a good year. x)
Resuragam.
Watched the long-waited “Barack Obama” on the Biography Channel!!! Woot!
SUPER INSPIRATIONAL! X)
“….There’s no liberal America, there’s no conservative America, there’s the United States of America; There’s not a white America, a black America, a Latino America, an Asian America, there is the United States of America!....”
That impactful speech made by the suave Barack Obama during 2004 Democratic National Convention stuck me in awe and sheer admiration.
I’ve never been much interested in politics, but how a “skinny boy with a weird name”, a teen who were once addicted to drugs, rose to the first Black president of the United States of America, acts as the best inspirational story.
He is a symbol of hope, of energy, of passion, of capability, to not only USA, but the whole world.
One of his significant speeches, given on the night of the primary, in Nashua, New Hampshire. It left such a huge impact that it was even made into a music video, by Black Pea Eye!
Check out the 4 newbies in my personal library!
Sense and Sensibility by my favourite author Jane Austen! It was her first published book. =)
I have been searching high and low for the version published by Oneworld Publication, which comes in a classy, elegant and yet simple cover as well as extra reading materials associated with the author and text. However, in vain i managed to get a clean and wrapped one.
So I bought the one in the picture from JP Harris. =)